Happiness: a state of well-being and contentment
Being completely happy is hard. When I began this journey to find my happy four years ago I had no clue where it would take me, how I would do it and would I really be happy. Well, today I can say I am pretty darn happy. But here’s the thing I didn’t really realize it. If that makes sense.
One of my girlfriends said it to me and it made me reflect, and I was like well there it is. Sis is happy, sis is me! Just another reason why girlfriends are so important. If, you need more, check this post out.
Anyhoo, my friend pointed out that I looked happy, and she was right. After she said it, I sat down and really thought about it and I realized I couldn’t remember the last time I had a woe is me moment or even really thought about the things that made me sad. I realized I was out here doing me, living life and enjoying it. It’s so funny that someone had to bring it to my attention before I realized it. Not sure if that’s good or bad.
Now I must add I do still want to get married and have kids. I don’t think that feeling will ever leave me but the upside now is that I’m too busy living my life, growing my blog/brand, trying to get healthy (kind of) that it doesn’t leave a lot of time to think about it.
I truly understand the saying now that an idle mind is the devil’s playground. Four years ago I wasn’t doing much but lying around the house, spending all my free time with my DVR so of course the devil was all in my head but now I don’t give him time. When I sit still I go to sleep LOL!
Happiness looks good on me if I must say so myself and it’s not easy. I make a conscious effort every day to be happy. I try to remind myself that my life isn’t that bad and I have a lot to be thankful for so being unhappy is not okay. It takes work, and I am definitely a work in progress. But I want it, so I am going to work for it every single day.
And here’s another thing…being happy is SO much better. I love feeling good. I love being able to have peace. I love having a life and doing things that make me happy. Out here feeling like Jilly from Philly and living my life like it’s golden.
I will be honest that sadness will creep in and for a minute, just a minute I let it in but hunty I shake it right on off. It’s hard, but I have to. CaNesha from four years ago is not welcome here anymore. CaNesha 2019 is where it’s at, and I am going to work hard every day to keep her here.
As always, thanks for reading!
Signed,
A really happy woman
